Wow I’ve just read something very short yet oh so very true. It describes all the feelings and emotions that I and many other’s go through on a regular basis.. I thought it was so good that I’d include it in this post.
“There is a particular kind of pain, elation, loneliness, and terror involved in this kind of madness. When you’re high it’s tremendous. The ideas and feelings are fast and frequent like shooting stars, and you follow them until you find better and brighter ones. Shyness goes, the right words and gestures are suddenly there, the power to captivate others a felt certainty. There are interests found in uninteresting people. Sensuality is pervasive and the desire to seduce and be seduced irresistible. Feelings of ease, intensity, power, well-being, financial omnipotence, and euphoria pervade one’s marrow. But, somewhere, this changes. The fast ideas are far too fast, and there are far too many; overwhelming confusion replaces clarity. Memory goes. Humor and absorption on friends’ faces are replaced by fear and concern. Everything previously moving with the grain is now against– you are irritable, angry, frightened, uncontrollable, and enmeshed totally in the blackest caves of the mind. You never knew those caves were there. It will never end, for madness carves its own reality.”
Well what do you think? I’d say it describes how allot of us feel when suffering from Bipolar very well.
It turns out that Kay Redfield Jamison is an American clinical psychologist and writer whose work has centered on bipolar disorder which she has suffered from since her early adulthood. She is Professor of Psychiatry at the Johns Hopkins University School of Medicine. If I’m honest that kind of suprised me, call me stupid or something but I didn’t think someone with a mental health Issue could practice psychiatry or be a clinical psychologist .. Am I wrong for thinking that??
Regardless of what I think ,one things for sure. She knows how to use words well, far better than I..