Feelings

I have felt more things, more deeply..

I have often asked myself whether, given the choice, I would choose to have Bipolar. If lithium were not available to me, or didn’t work for me, the answer would be a simple no… and it would be an answer laced with terror.

But lithium does work for me after 2 years of trying everything else, but now I can afford to pose the question. Strangely enough, I think I would choose to have it. It’s complicated…

I honestly believe that as a result of it I have felt more things, more deeply; had more experiences, more intensely; loved more, and have been more loved…… laughed more often for having cried more often; appreciated more the springs, for all the winters…

Depressed, I have crawled on my hands and knees in order to get across a room and have done it for month after month.

But normal or manic I have run faster, thought faster, and loved faster than most I know.  ///

Studies indicate that a high number of established artists.. meet the diagnostic criteria for depression… it seems these diseases can sometimes enhance or otherwise contribute to creativity in some people.

 

 

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